hmmm

i realised how easy promises are broken.

ppl goes like "ya, we should meet up after we graduate"
and then, it goes like "no, cannot that day. i got this this this this on. sorry"
HELLO. sorry sorry sorry. apologising does not DO ANYTHING. i dunno la. just suddenly super emo against such stuff. apologising does not equal to anything =.=. i totally CANNOT stand this kind of stuff la. i guess promises to me is nothing but lies. and i hate lies. -totally.

and ppl goes like friends are this friends are that.

but do most friends last after we graduate from sch? and ppl placed their priorities on friends. i guessed i've learnt that family is the most important.

what exactly are friends?

ppl will go like " friends are like stars, you dun always see them but u know they're always there"

i dun believe such sayings anymore. they're too vague to me. meeting good, long lasting friends are one in a million. and sadly, i never met any in manjusri. and i meant long lasting good friends.

yes, i've met dar, jerald, eve, valerie, mummie, boonie, kexian, puay, crystal, leonad, yuanlin, mao mao and all these la. but seriously, they're not always there for me are they?

sometimes, not saying anyone, i feel used.

and i HATE being used. i would only LOVE to be used by GOD, my daddy.

and NO others.

and i felt i have no one to share my secrets with do i? cause there's no exchange of secrets between any of us is there? when i hang out with jer, dar and eve. they're more talking to themselves than talking to me. i kinda feel odd at times. BUT i have to thank them for allowing me to encounter jesus once again(x partly also due to me not sharing either. but i tried. i really did. but in the end it ended up being spreaded. ><

there was alex thiang and tedja. but they're guys. and they have their guy friends and i wan to have some girl friends too. and if im too close to them SOME ppl just say im being a flirt. and im pretty numb to such stuff already. SAY wat u wan. i DUN CARE anymore.

suddenly thought abt friends because mr gui and ms tay gave us a book each. and mine was abt friends.

okay. i know i got yujuan who will lend me a listening ear anytime. but being in different sch, you'll tend to draw further away wont you? and the situation is kind of different. i cannot go through wat she goes through and vice versa.

well. suddenly felt like blogging abt friends.

done. ciao~